Grief

The days are hard and long

I struggle to breathe

I beg God, let me see him

Please

I know I’m being selfish and your free

But I beg God, please just let me see

I need to see him

PLEASE

I need to set this pain free

I need to know that he loved me

PLEASE

I need to feel some peace

PLEASE

I need to see him

PLEASE

Let me hug him

PLEASE

Let me tell him I love him

PLEASE

I’m struggling to breathe

PLEASE

I need him

PLEASE

I need him to know I loved him

PLEASE

I need to feel him next to me

I need him to see what he meant to me

I need him; here with me

PLEASE

What is “PLEASE”

If you know what PLEASE means

to a person who begs the word PLEASE

then

PLEASE

PLEASE

Let me see him

PLEASE.

Kelly

Do you even understand?

Life has not always been fairytales and pretty dresses. I can go on and on about all the horrible things that happened in my life. Let me list a few… my mother was on drugs, my older brother committed suicide at 22, I went through an abusive relationship, suffered sexual assault, suffered clinical depression and anxiety, attempted to commit suicide myself… ect. Although, today I am 20 years old and married to my bestfriend and buying our first home! Life is what you make out of it. Yes, life throws all kinds of screwed up things your way, but if you work through all of that you are capable of getting the light out of life too. Life is full of all this depressing music and quotes, it’s like we forgot about encouraging life and instead are encouraging people to fall into this deep never ending hole of darkness. Be better than that, grow, flourish, change, inspire, travel, design, sing, dance, do whatever you need to do; just be better.

Kelly